Several weeks ago I had a disappointing event that took my breath away. In the scheme of things it was a small ripple in a big ocean, but I was making a tidal wave out of it. My heart was set on attending an event, but by my own fault I ended up not able to go. My reaction to this was far short of mature, let alone Godly and I knew I needed to change my attitude. But I sure did not want to. I was angry and sad. I felt a loss of entitlement and just plain ugly.
This minor setback was challenging my faith and my relationship with God. I could give up now and seek Him, thus avoiding the rigmarole of having to learn this lesson a harder way (it was not my first choice). Then the thought came to me (very much inspired by the Holy Spirit I might add) that I could use the time I would have spent at this event to pray for those who were there. So I began to pray. I prayed for their success, for their learning new things, for all that God had for them. And I began to have fun! I praised God, worshiping and singing and dancing and in the middle of all this I realized that I was exactly where I was supposed to be and each of them was exactly where they should be. I was at peace.
What I was not inclined to do, God in His mercy and grace accomplished. My attitude was changed and I was ok with the entire situation. And I felt loved and ministered to by God. This last Sunday as Dusty, John and Randi talked about worship and drawing near to God I realized what had happened. I worshiped and God met me and I was change by His grace.
1Peter 5:6-7 Therefore, humble yourselves under the mighty hand of God, that He may exalt you at the proper time,casting all your anxiety on Him, because He cares for you.
Luke 16:10 "He who is faithful in a very little thing is faithful also in much....”
Psalm 42:5 Why are you in despair, O my soul? And why have you become disturbed within me? Hope in God, for I shall again praise Him For the help of His presence.