Sunday morning Dusty and Terry were talking about “new beginnings,” about God working, using and maybe even orchestrating those difficult times when we are in a dead space to bring about “new beginnings.”
My dead space:
Nothing happening spiritually.
Things falling apart physically.
I feel so lost.
He works on my behalf, He is designing and reconfiguring me from the inside out, not just my hair or weight, but how I work on the inside; I need to let go of the design I have for me and let the Holy Spirit have full reign in me. Losing my life to permit God to save my life and awaken new starts.
Not so easy, because I resist letting go, I enjoy my independence and maybe especially when I'm having a rough time. I feel like it is asking me to walk off the edge of a cliff blindfolded not knowing whether it is a one foot or 1,000-foot drop. Enter God, Jesus and the Holy Spirit, ultimately that is where I need to be. That is where the grace is, the promise of new mercies every new day. Mercy for when I don't do so good…. when I get it wrong…. when I want to give up. And when I have forgotten what God has promised and already done in my life. I feel like nothing is going right and, as Terry said, God is getting my attention because there are lessons He wants to teach me, but I’m not getting it. So it feels more like a dead-end.
Has promised that this is not a dead-end, it may be a death, a death to old habits, comfortable circumstances, preconceived ideas of who He is and how He does things. And who I am and who I am not. And through this death I know He is working the hardest in my life, He is the closest to me and caring for me in every one of those times. So I can go through rough times, and still have hope, because my Father is refining me and changing me and using friends like Pastor Dusty and Terry & Colby to help me remember- God is my Father and is working in my life to create in me His plans for my future of hope, health, prosperity and peace.
God is in me the hope of glory. So I can rest knowing that my Father has all the bases covered, the loop-holes filled, and I am His child, in His hands. Now it is just remembering this. Thank you Terry, for helping me to remember.
Jeremiah 29:11 “'For I know the thoughts and plans that I have for you,'says the Lord, 'thoughts and plans for welfare and peace and not for evil to give you hope in your final outcome.’” (AMP)
Colossians 1:27 “To whom God willed to make known what is the riches of the glory of this mystery among the Gentiles, which is Christ in you, the hope of glory.” (NASB)